Almost had a breakdown today Attended the Alpha Phi Omega Info night and got a text from my mom saying my dad didn't want me to join Man instant mood breaker, I really couldn't comprehend, I couldn't understand even if my mom said she hoped I did I was seriously stressing out in my car man crying out of frustration unable to find the reason why I couldnt I'm ahead in units, I'm on top of the things in my classes, I don't go to choir anymore, I don't go to FSF anymore Focus on my studies, What else am I supposed to do in my college life Do nothing, go home do work be alone? I was so stressed Fuck Obscenity thrown every other word So Fucking frustrated I didn't want my life to be nothing, I want it to be about service I want there to be purpose APO's info night made me realize that that's what I Was missing Service, Friendship, Leadership Key factors I've had in my life that made me who I am and made me happy There was like no reason why I shouldn't be able to join So annoyed, it felt like my dad didn't want me to do anything with my life or allow me to have any new experiences It was really overwhelming, I haven't been that frustrated in a while but the source is the same I can manage my time, I told you I can I'm not home, I told you I wouldn't be If you can listen to your son, that'd do wonders I've done well before with extracurricular activities and giving to the community why stop now when development is what I need?